I apologize for the slight delay in ADF updates, I know I said on Twitter it'll be out on Tuesday but real life decided to step in and mess with my plans. This time however in a positive way *laughs* Finally!
To be honest I've been having a rather shitty year thus far, particularly because after quitting university I had a very hard time finding an apprenticeship. It was very stressful and at times awfully depressing, and surely not easy but!
At last, life's being good to me. I got a call this morning from one of the companies I had applied to, and the wonderful lady on the phone informed me that I've been signed up! I'll be driving over there tomorrow to sign my contract and I'll be officially starting an apprenticeship as an industrial business management assistant (long job name, I know. Those of you who are German might be better acquainted with the term "Industriekauffrau" *laughs*) next year.
They had chosen a total of five apprentices out of 100 applicants, so you can see how stiff the competition is and how hard it actually is to get a good spot nowadays. The company is top notch though, and I had really, really, really wanted that spot. I've been on pins and needles basically the entire last week and have started to get progressively downhearted since yesterday because it was already Tuesday and I still hadn't heard anything from them.
But, it's all been worth it, today's call saved the year *laughs* I am so happy and relieved like you wouldn't believe. There's nothing worse than staring down an uncertain future, especially for young people such as myself.
As is, I will be starting August 2014 which is still eight months away, but given that I've tried and waited for almost two years, another 8 months are nothing. Life is finally starting to look up for me and I'm just feeling like a leaden weight just fell off my shoulders. I'm pumped and motivated and I can't wait for next year! *laughs* It will be so good to finally start work and school and just move forward with my life again. It's been in stagnation for too long and that had started to really get to me.
So for all of you who are still in between things, or don't yet know what to do with their lives or are trying to establish foothold in life like I have been only a day ago, hang in there! If you don't give up and keep trying, you will be rewarded - trust me on that. Heaven knows I've been through enough bullshit and dark times in my life where all I wanted was to just curl up and die or give up on all and everything but so long as you keep picking yourself up and keep pushing yourself forward, good things will come to you.
It's not fate, or destiny or gods or whatever else. Don't rely on those to bring you happiness and don't blame those for the bad things in your life. It's all about you, and your effort and your strength and your dedication to whatever it is you've set your mind on. It won't fall into your lap easily most of the time but if you want happiness for yourself and chase after it, you'll get it.
I know it sounds cliché, but really the most important thing is to not give up. Even if you feel like it, the trick that helped me through the most sinister patches of my life was the pure will to make it just another day. You may never know what tomorrow will be like and when you feel like throwing everything away, just push yourself for one more day. And the next day, for another day more, and the next and the next, one day at a time. Keep pushing and eventually, you will get stronger and things will get easier, and life will get better.
And if you feel like you're alone and don't really have anyone to support you; I know it's not much but know that I do. If you're struggling with those things, I support you wholeheartedly and I'm cheering you on, whoever you are and wherever you are because believe me, I know what it's like. Been there, done that and came out alive.
Life can be an awful, awful creature at times but really, the good things that you manage to seize in it are all worth it. Be that good thing a job/apprenticeship, or a relationship, or family and friends. Because frankly, right this moment, I am SO happy I haven't given up whenever I've been close to doing it, and one day you'll be happy about it as well, if you aren't already *laughs* So for all of you who are currently perfectly content with your lives, keep doing what you do!
Anyway, strayed off topic here XD I'll be going off to bed now and looking forward to tomorrow and signing my contract very much and I promise I'll get the next chapter out latest this weekend. I just really had my head and heart filled with a lot of other things and I haven't been able to focus on writing much the past days. I had such a good feeling after the interview and I wanted to be part of that company so badly, I was really scared to receive a rejection. I slept bad and I ate little and basically waited day in day out on that call which had finally come today and I'm just very happy. Mentally exhausted and drained, but happy *laughs*
I'll likely get to replying all the messages and comments on the weekend as well, so I will be seeing you guys around soon. Stay strong and motivated; live life, it's worth it!
Much love and lots of hugs to all of you <3!
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